Status: Doing chemistry and biology and physics(valentine history research) assignments.
I'm really frustrated. So frustrated that the only thing I can do is to stick out my tongue and pout and frown. Which SUCKS! I'm not frustrated because I don't know how to do my assignments, although that is partially true, but the concentration is small enough to be neglected.
The main source of my frustration is life and people.
I thought he was a good friend. I thought he was nice and would help when I need. I don't know why, but he had gotten very unfriendly toward me and refuses to help. This behavior puzzled me. (I wonder if that's how animal behaviorist lose their sanity.)
Perhaps this frustration is because, as I learnt through the years, I still regard him as a friend, a good friend who would reach out to help if you need him there. This frustration would only surface when the person is someone whom I regard highly as a friend.
I just hope I'm thinking too much.
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Thursday, February 02, 2006
Changing CCA?
Don't get me wrong, I love my CCA. It's just that the total input and output of our CCA is far too limited. This is the consequence of the lack of involvement of both (or more) parties.
Firstly, the drama club has only 7 people + 18 new people this year - 1 who decided to quit and join some other CCA. Out of the 24 people, I wonder who is really enthusiatic about this whole drama club thing. Excluding me, since my case is a little complicated, only one out of the 7 old dramakins selected drama as the first CCA choice. I don't know about the 18 new people, but I think less than 2 of them put drama as first choice. Some did not even choose drama at all!
The 7 drama people were talented people. It's just the lack of commitment. During drama meetings, it is not unusual to see 'small-group discussions' while the main-stream discussion is on-going. Also it's either we can't think spontanously or some are just too shy to express their ideas. Regarding that, I'm not surprised either, sicne the encouragement and agreement is seldom present.
Out of the 18 new pple, at least 4 of them bothered looking up for the drama club pple when they cannot find the teacher-in-charge, since she was on medical leave. The other 14 either was very confused with the CCA system of our school or just can't be bothered.
Secondly... We have a very good drama instructor. She is spontanous, creative, hyper, and professional. However I felt that she did not regard everyone's idea as much as the other person. In my opinion, she is rather bias and favors one student. I distinctly remembered that she said there's no CCA leader for the drama club. However what I observed is that she speaks only to one student, her favorite student. She regard her ideas more than others', she did not care if other students are making the effort to contribute to the CCA. Take that day for example, she was absent on our CCA day, and she did not inform any of us, allowing all of us to be stucked in a confused state. I was extremely furious with her when I tried to contact her telling her about the ACT3 project and how the deadline is closing, she simply ignored, until like a few days later, her fav. student came and say the thing is still on. WHAT IS THE MEANING OF THIS?! This is simply RIDICULUS.
I guess what I wanted to say is that the hyper and friendly attitude she has may be her asset, yet her prejudice can evaporate all these values. I shall give drama just one more try and see how things work out. I may change CCA or simply slack in the CCA, depending on how things go.
Firstly, the drama club has only 7 people + 18 new people this year - 1 who decided to quit and join some other CCA. Out of the 24 people, I wonder who is really enthusiatic about this whole drama club thing. Excluding me, since my case is a little complicated, only one out of the 7 old dramakins selected drama as the first CCA choice. I don't know about the 18 new people, but I think less than 2 of them put drama as first choice. Some did not even choose drama at all!
The 7 drama people were talented people. It's just the lack of commitment. During drama meetings, it is not unusual to see 'small-group discussions' while the main-stream discussion is on-going. Also it's either we can't think spontanously or some are just too shy to express their ideas. Regarding that, I'm not surprised either, sicne the encouragement and agreement is seldom present.
Out of the 18 new pple, at least 4 of them bothered looking up for the drama club pple when they cannot find the teacher-in-charge, since she was on medical leave. The other 14 either was very confused with the CCA system of our school or just can't be bothered.
Secondly... We have a very good drama instructor. She is spontanous, creative, hyper, and professional. However I felt that she did not regard everyone's idea as much as the other person. In my opinion, she is rather bias and favors one student. I distinctly remembered that she said there's no CCA leader for the drama club. However what I observed is that she speaks only to one student, her favorite student. She regard her ideas more than others', she did not care if other students are making the effort to contribute to the CCA. Take that day for example, she was absent on our CCA day, and she did not inform any of us, allowing all of us to be stucked in a confused state. I was extremely furious with her when I tried to contact her telling her about the ACT3 project and how the deadline is closing, she simply ignored, until like a few days later, her fav. student came and say the thing is still on. WHAT IS THE MEANING OF THIS?! This is simply RIDICULUS.
I guess what I wanted to say is that the hyper and friendly attitude she has may be her asset, yet her prejudice can evaporate all these values. I shall give drama just one more try and see how things work out. I may change CCA or simply slack in the CCA, depending on how things go.
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