Dreams Episode 30

Day of dream: this afternoon
Setting: airport-like place

Very confusing relationships...

I had a tiff with my husband (played by 郑炳辉). He was sort-of a bad guy, hot, chauvenistic, cared for me, a very loving husband in general, but he did bad things in his business. I felt repulsed by him, yet he loved me. I was one or two-months pregnant...

Anyway I was at the airport (I have no idea how I ended up there, and I don't think it was arrival or departure either), and I was in a bad mood (probably from my real-life tiff with my parents). My husband's brothers came to fetch me, his elder brother driving, and his younger brother in the passenger's seat. The elder brother can seldom make up his mind, and often does what he was told to do. The younger one was a adorable, carefree guy.

I took the back seat. And chatted with them. I was glad my husband could not make it to fetch me. I soon found out that he would be coming later, and was rather disappointed. The elder brother wanted to get something from the bookstore (weird...). The younger brother, noticing my gloom, asked the elder brother if he would find some joke-books to "cure" me (he was being soooo sweet). I decided that I would use the toilet, and excused myself.

While I was in the toilet, I had thoughts of "escaping" from my husband, wanting to avoid him. When I was leaving the toilet, I saw him approaching the vehicle. I ran back into the toilet and hid there. I was there for quite awhile. I thought about our marriage, about how much I loved him and yet repulsed him for all the bad things that he did. I thought about our baby growing in my tummy, and about our family...

I must have stayed in there for quite a while. He came looking for me. I wanted to hide from him. So I hid in the cubicle (a large comfortable one). Then I started bleeding... I was scared. I knew how much he cared about the baby. I wanted so much to see him, to run into his arms, for him to protect me and our baby, he would know what to do. Yet I also wished to avoid him, I didn't even know if I still want to baby...